“I Have NO Idea What “Normal” Is or What I Am Supposed to do in My Day to Day Life Outside of the Drug Life Style.”

“I Have NO Idea What “Normal” Is or What I Am Supposed to do in My Day to Day Life Outside of the Drug Life Style.”

When your life is chained in drugs, it is impossible to imagine life without it. When life consists of getting from one hit to the next, hanging out with like-minded people, staying up ‘chillin’ all night doing tweaker things, and either isolating yourself or be involved with constant major drama, paying bills, eating dinner, and driving to work seems […]

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

“I’ve been clean 9 months and still get cravings. They are especially bad after dreams of using.” I already am a vivid dreamer and when I was younger, I use to sleep-walk a lot. My nighttime activity was sometimes more active than I would be during the wake hours! I can remember some dreams that […]

Meth to Marijuana: Why and Why Not it’s a Good Idea and One of My Most Humiliating Moments

Meth to Marijuana: Why and Why Not it’s a Good Idea and One of My Most Humiliating Moments

Marijuana is considered a gateway drug while on the other hand many people don’t even consider marijuana a drug. With the recent laws passed to legalize marijuana, it seems soon that it will be as mainstream as drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes.  Of course, compared to meth, marijuana is definitely the ‘peaceful and eating’ drug […]

Been Clean For a Week and It’s Just Not Worth It”

Been Clean For a Week and It’s Just Not Worth It”

“Been clean for a week and my body is still feeling the aftershock. It’s just not worth it” If you’ve quit or ran out of meth, you KNOW this feeling. This is what meth does. This is the hold that meth has. ‘Aftershock’ is a great descriptive word to depict just how bad you feel […]

A Roof for Six Months

A Roof for Six Months

“I’ve been living on the edge of not knowing of my housing status for the last 2 months but I can finally relax for at least the next 6.” This statement conveys a small ray of hope for someone who is using still or trying to quit and get their life back on track. Meth […]

Dilemmas of Coming Down

Dilemmas of Coming Down

“The option of rehab is still available, and I guess I’ll still think about it but there are a couple problems… So if I go, I have to come home to my boyfriend using and force myself to not use, and my son doesn’t know I ever started it again.” Dilemmas of coming down When […]

The Meth in My Story.

The Meth in My Story.

What brings someone to have meth arrive in their story? I’m sure there are a million stories and reasons how meth wound itself in someone’s story; it was already in the family, parents used, high-school friends pushed, boyfriend/girlfriend  introduced, etc. Some reasons are because someone wanted to be ‘cool,’ curious, bored, because everyone else is […]

Who are you going to tell first?

Who are you going to tell first?

You are you going to tell first? This could be a really hard question to answer especially if you’ve been able to keep it a secret from everyone. Or have you? Do you think people around you know think something is up but they don’t know what it is? Do you think that the people […]

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

“Why do I see you as a companion, a treat, a source of warmth, peace, serenity, focus, purpose, when the reality for each of those words you are in fact the opposite…” Yes, meth, in fact you are the opposite of all of those words. A lot of people don’t understand that this is exactly […]

Losing EVERYTHING.

Losing EVERYTHING.

Have you lost your job, your husband, your best friend, and your house? Been kicked out of your home? Yeah, most of us have experienced one of those in a day – maybe two. It’s a bad day! One that you think will probably define you for a while but how quickly life returns to […]