Who are you going to tell first?

Who are you going to tell first?

You are you going to tell first? This could be a really hard question to answer especially if you’ve been able to keep it a secret from everyone. Or have you? Do you think people around you know think something is up but they don’t know what it is? Do you think that the people […]

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

“Why do I see you as a companion, a treat, a source of warmth, peace, serenity, focus, purpose, when the reality for each of those words you are in fact the opposite…” Yes, meth, in fact you are the opposite of all of those words. A lot of people don’t understand that this is exactly […]

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I haven’t posted any new blogs lately – yes, I know. I’ve turned my attention onto a couple of projects that I’ve been working on and just haven’t had a chance but I will be back on track posting blogs twice a week. In the meantime, I like to […]

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

“Am I going to have big ‘M’ carved on my head for the rest of my life or will things get better or won’t it matter eventually?” The answer is a big, fat YES – THINGS WILL GET BETTER!!!! In past blogs, I’ve compared my meth experience to a scar on my knee – it’s […]

Losing EVERYTHING.

Losing EVERYTHING.

Have you lost your job, your husband, your best friend, and your house? Been kicked out of your home? Yeah, most of us have experienced one of those in a day – maybe two. It’s a bad day! One that you think will probably define you for a while but how quickly life returns to […]

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Have you been drug tested at work? Either for a random test or a test due suspicion? I have – AND IT WASN’T FUN. Especially since I was HIGH. What a day (shaking my head). It was late summer. I was doing secretarial work for a company – I was with Jack – and in […]

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

(If you haven’t read “December, 2007. My Last Month Being an Addict” you probably should or this might not make any since). It’s New Year’s Eve, 2007. Jack and I have been on a huge runner preparing to finally quit (that’s sensible thinking, right?) and this was the last night – MY LAST NIGHT OF […]