Who are you going to tell first?

Who are you going to tell first?

You are you going to tell first? This could be a really hard question to answer especially if you’ve been able to keep it a secret from everyone. Or have you? Do you think people around you know think something is up but they don’t know what it is? Do you think that the people […]

Losing EVERYTHING.

Losing EVERYTHING.

Have you lost your job, your husband, your best friend, and your house? Been kicked out of your home? Yeah, most of us have experienced one of those in a day – maybe two. It’s a bad day! One that you think will probably define you for a while but how quickly life returns to […]

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Have you been drug tested at work? Either for a random test or a test due suspicion? I have – AND IT WASN’T FUN. Especially since I was HIGH. What a day (shaking my head). It was late summer. I was doing secretarial work for a company – I was with Jack – and in […]

The Pivotal Point of My Addiction

The Pivotal Point of My Addiction

Have you read “The End – No wait, the Beginning” http://carleewalker.com/the-end-no-wait-the-beginning/ ? Before I share with you the pivotal point of my addiction recovery – the event that will forever change me and ensure that I will NEVER use meth again – I want to share with you first my thoughts about forgiveness. Because it is […]

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

(If you haven’t read “December, 2007. My Last Month Being an Addict” you probably should or this might not make any since). It’s New Year’s Eve, 2007. Jack and I have been on a huge runner preparing to finally quit (that’s sensible thinking, right?) and this was the last night – MY LAST NIGHT OF […]

My Last December with Mark  – PART 2 – My first week clean.

My Last December with Mark – PART 2 – My first week clean.

I slept the whole way to my dad’s house which took about three times longer because of the snowy conditions – but it didn’t matter to me. I was gone. The heater in the van finally had me warm from head to toe. I remember feeling the hard bumps in the driveways and I knew […]

My last December with Mark… the first quit.

My last December with Mark… the first quit.

My last December with Mark is foggy in my head. We were fighting so much it was starting to get really crazy; in fact, it was easier to count the days out of the week that we didn’t fight. We fought about everything; the power getting turned off, bills not being paid but we still […]