When You Realize You Can’t Quit.

When You Realize You Can’t Quit.

“You wake up one day and look back at everyday use and realize you can’t stop.” That was a scary day. The feeling of desperation turned my empty stomach into knots. I thought for sure I was in control. I could stop if I WANTED to. Nope. That’s not the way this drug works. I […]

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I haven’t posted any new blogs lately – yes, I know. I’ve turned my attention onto a couple of projects that I’ve been working on and just haven’t had a chance but I will be back on track posting blogs twice a week. In the meantime, I like to […]

METH AND WEIGHT. WHAT NOT TO SAY – EVER.

METH AND WEIGHT. WHAT NOT TO SAY – EVER.

When I was introduced to meth with Mark, I was 27 years old and weighed about 140lbs on my 5’5” frame. I wasn’t happy with my weight but at least I had been losing weight after getting up to 180lbs when I used the birth control shot the previous years. I’ve been vegetarian my whole […]

The Thrill of Not Getting Caught

The Thrill of Not Getting Caught

I think everyone deep down gets a thrill out of ‘not being caught.’ This could include a whole range of behaviors – stealing, cheating, addictive issues, drinking to name a few. What’s yours?? Obviously its pressure from others that fuels the thrill (police or victim – whoever it is that you are hiding your behavior […]

Do I wish I had never done meth? Do I regret it?

Do I wish I had never done meth? Do I regret it?

Well, yes (of course) and no. I miss my teeth. I don’t miss the fighting. I miss the comradery and the fun party times. I don’t miss coming down. I could go on but that’s not the real question. Having done meth and having that chapter of experience in my life (and that’s exactly what […]