THANKSGIVING 2015

THANKSGIVING 2015

THANKSGIVING – the good and the bad. I love Thanksgiving  – but I’ve had good ones and I’ve had bad ones. The two Thanksgivings that I had with Mark, my ex-husband, I remember being so high that I couldn’t eat. There is a since of excitement around that just made getting too high to function […]

Do I think about meth every day now?

Do I think about meth every day now?

No, not anymore. Normal life is BUSY. I’m busier now than doing nothing tweaking. Granted, when you’re tweaking you feel like you are getting tons done but really you’re not. It comes up now and then in my mind, and honestly, I’ll find myself pine for it like a long, lost friend for a moment […]

Life after meth.

Life after meth.

You really need to think about this as a journey – an open road. Life is a highway consisting of work, relationships, and responsibilities. Everyone around you is on the same highway. You took an exit when you allowed meth in your life, and granted, it seemed like a really fun and exciting detour. But […]

Trigger Dream

Trigger Dream

My husband, Jack is sometimes a restless sleeper. And I’m a please-don’t-bother-me-I-am-in-desperate-need-of-sleep sleeper. Being mom and having baby sleeping in the room with us, my ears are always on when I wish they were off. And when I get woke up needlessly, I get cranky. I try really hard not to because it’s caused arguments […]

About Me

About Me

Hi. I’m Carlee, and I’m a meth addict. I’ve been living the normal life for eight nine years. What is normal life? Normal life includes marriage, paying bills, active church life, children, bachelor’s degree, car insurance, friends, family, and sleeping eight hours a night (now that the baby is sleeping through the night). But I […]