I have a scar on my knee. I remember the exact moment when I received it too; Disneyland, seven years old, dark, tired, and running to the car. I remember my toe catching on the pavement and falling hard. I ripped my pants and there was lots of blood. And it HURT. I had pain for days, and what made it worse was we drove eight hours in the car the next day to return home. I couldn’t walk. I couldn’t sleep. It was so sore for a long time. Now, it’s just an ugly scar – not one of those scars that makes you never want to wear shorts again or makes people stare in the store, but you know it’s there. You’ve had a knee-scrape like that, right? The worse kind of knee-scrape with a matching scar? You remember exactly how you got it, the circumstances, the time of day, flying through the air…. Right? Hi. My name is Carlee and I’m a meth addict. Lost everything twice, ruined myself financially, lost my inheritance, lost relationships, lost jobs, relapsed, and have a long list of shame. My name is Carlee and my husband is a meth addict. He’s on his last chance, and if he uses again, he’ll lose everything. Hi. Did I tell you my name is Carlee? And I’m here to just offer you one thing. HOPE. I’m here to offer hope to the user, hope to a family member living with an addict, hope that NORMAL LIFE IS RIGHT THERE WAITING FOR YOU. I’m nine years clean from meth and I’m ready to lay it out on the table for you – just to give you HOPE that you can walk away from that devil drug and only have a little scar to show for it – well, and a couple missing teeth.
My blog is going to open the door of my meth addiction and I’m going to share every dirty, nasty detail and every positive and hopeful moment. This blog is for the user and for someone who has an addict in their life. This blog is going to lay out a realistic plan to get you out of the devil’s grip – because that is what meth is, the devil’s grip. I want this blog to give you hope; hope to finally step out into the sunshine. Hope that you can really help that addict in your life. Hope that you are not alone.