Picking.. Picking.. Picking..

Picking.. Picking.. Picking..

Confession time – and thought I would give you the opportunity to either relate or shake your head at me in wonder. As you know, a tweaker will ‘pick’; either at themselves or on someone else. If you were already a ‘picker,’ tweaking just makes the habit ten-times worse. Anyone who knows a tweaker knows […]

Losing my Favorite Job.

Losing my Favorite Job.

Have you had a favorite job? What makes a job GREAT to you? I mean, deep down, a lot of times we hate getting up and going to work, but maybe you’ve had that one job that makes it easy and exciting to get up and get ready to work? A job that is fun, […]

Scared to Drive.

Scared to Drive.

What scared me the most when I was on meth? DRIVING! What do you think of that, or can you relate? I know it was the same for Jack too. When you have to sit that long without any sleep, your body wants to CRASH no matter how much meth you do. Honestly, driving scared […]

A New Use for Aluminum Foil.

A New Use for Aluminum Foil.

How did you first do meth? Pipe? Line? Some other way I don’t know about? Don’t remember? Well, I remember my first time like it was yesterday and I share it with you to see if you can relate, and to educate those who don’t know. When I remember, I shudder… what on earth did […]

I’d Rather Be Alone.

I’d Rather Be Alone.

“I have isolated myself from family and friends. I rather be alone and struggle than for anyone to find out I have a problem.” Do you feel like this? It is one thing being isolated from family and friends because of location and circumstances but it’s a whole other situation where you isolate YOURSELF from […]

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

‘Why Do I See You as a Companion?’

“Why do I see you as a companion, a treat, a source of warmth, peace, serenity, focus, purpose, when the reality for each of those words you are in fact the opposite…” Yes, meth, in fact you are the opposite of all of those words. A lot of people don’t understand that this is exactly […]

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I haven’t posted any new blogs lately – yes, I know. I’ve turned my attention onto a couple of projects that I’ve been working on and just haven’t had a chance but I will be back on track posting blogs twice a week. In the meantime, I like to […]

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

“Am I going to have big ‘M’ carved on my head for the rest of my life or will things get better or won’t it matter eventually?” The answer is a big, fat YES – THINGS WILL GET BETTER!!!! In past blogs, I’ve compared my meth experience to a scar on my knee – it’s […]

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Have you been drug tested at work? Either for a random test or a test due suspicion? I have – AND IT WASN’T FUN. Especially since I was HIGH. What a day (shaking my head). It was late summer. I was doing secretarial work for a company – I was with Jack – and in […]