Feeling My Body Shutting Down.

Feeling My Body Shutting Down.

“I stepped out of bed after not sleeping all night, to get up and go to work, my face sunk in and heavy, my heart hurting, tired, dazed, gotta do another line…get to work, go hide in the bathroom to do another line, gotta rush home to do more dope, not eating, not drinking, no […]

The Meth in My Story.

The Meth in My Story.

What brings someone to have meth arrive in their story? I’m sure there are a million stories and reasons how meth wound itself in someone’s story; it was already in the family, parents used, high-school friends pushed, boyfriend/girlfriend  introduced, etc. Some reasons are because someone wanted to be ‘cool,’ curious, bored, because everyone else is […]

Losing my Favorite Job.

Losing my Favorite Job.

Have you had a favorite job? What makes a job GREAT to you? I mean, deep down, a lot of times we hate getting up and going to work, but maybe you’ve had that one job that makes it easy and exciting to get up and get ready to work? A job that is fun, […]

I’d Rather Be Alone.

I’d Rather Be Alone.

“I have isolated myself from family and friends. I rather be alone and struggle than for anyone to find out I have a problem.” Do you feel like this? It is one thing being isolated from family and friends because of location and circumstances but it’s a whole other situation where you isolate YOURSELF from […]

Who are you going to tell first?

Who are you going to tell first?

You are you going to tell first? This could be a really hard question to answer especially if you’ve been able to keep it a secret from everyone. Or have you? Do you think people around you know think something is up but they don’t know what it is? Do you think that the people […]

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

The Big ‘M’ Carved On Your Head.

“Am I going to have big ‘M’ carved on my head for the rest of my life or will things get better or won’t it matter eventually?” The answer is a big, fat YES – THINGS WILL GET BETTER!!!! In past blogs, I’ve compared my meth experience to a scar on my knee – it’s […]

Losing EVERYTHING.

Losing EVERYTHING.

Have you lost your job, your husband, your best friend, and your house? Been kicked out of your home? Yeah, most of us have experienced one of those in a day – maybe two. It’s a bad day! One that you think will probably define you for a while but how quickly life returns to […]

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Have you been drug tested at work? Either for a random test or a test due suspicion? I have – AND IT WASN’T FUN. Especially since I was HIGH. What a day (shaking my head). It was late summer. I was doing secretarial work for a company – I was with Jack – and in […]