“I Have NO Idea What “Normal” Is or What I Am Supposed to do in My Day to Day Life Outside of the Drug Life Style.”

“I Have NO Idea What “Normal” Is or What I Am Supposed to do in My Day to Day Life Outside of the Drug Life Style.”

When your life is chained in drugs, it is impossible to imagine life without it. When life consists of getting from one hit to the next, hanging out with like-minded people, staying up ‘chillin’ all night doing tweaker things, and either isolating yourself or be involved with constant major drama, paying bills, eating dinner, and driving to work seems […]

Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Look, I’m certainly not telling you this to give you any ideas. This piece is more for someone who doesn’t know how easy it is to get paraphernalia. Maybe you are wondering where on earth addicts get those strange looking pipes not realizing that you are buying your milk right next to a meth pipe. […]

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

“I’ve been clean 9 months and still get cravings. They are especially bad after dreams of using.” I already am a vivid dreamer and when I was younger, I use to sleep-walk a lot. My nighttime activity was sometimes more active than I would be during the wake hours! I can remember some dreams that […]

Meth to Marijuana: Why and Why Not it’s a Good Idea and One of My Most Humiliating Moments

Meth to Marijuana: Why and Why Not it’s a Good Idea and One of My Most Humiliating Moments

Marijuana is considered a gateway drug while on the other hand many people don’t even consider marijuana a drug. With the recent laws passed to legalize marijuana, it seems soon that it will be as mainstream as drinking alcohol and smoking cigarettes.  Of course, compared to meth, marijuana is definitely the ‘peaceful and eating’ drug […]

A Roof for Six Months

A Roof for Six Months

“I’ve been living on the edge of not knowing of my housing status for the last 2 months but I can finally relax for at least the next 6.” This statement conveys a small ray of hope for someone who is using still or trying to quit and get their life back on track. Meth […]

Feeling My Body Shutting Down.

Feeling My Body Shutting Down.

“I stepped out of bed after not sleeping all night, to get up and go to work, my face sunk in and heavy, my heart hurting, tired, dazed, gotta do another line…get to work, go hide in the bathroom to do another line, gotta rush home to do more dope, not eating, not drinking, no […]

The Meth in My Story.

The Meth in My Story.

What brings someone to have meth arrive in their story? I’m sure there are a million stories and reasons how meth wound itself in someone’s story; it was already in the family, parents used, high-school friends pushed, boyfriend/girlfriend  introduced, etc. Some reasons are because someone wanted to be ‘cool,’ curious, bored, because everyone else is […]

Picking.. Picking.. Picking..

Picking.. Picking.. Picking..

Confession time – and thought I would give you the opportunity to either relate or shake your head at me in wonder. As you know, a tweaker will ‘pick’; either at themselves or on someone else. If you were already a ‘picker,’ tweaking just makes the habit ten-times worse. Anyone who knows a tweaker knows […]

Scared to Drive.

Scared to Drive.

What scared me the most when I was on meth? DRIVING! What do you think of that, or can you relate? I know it was the same for Jack too. When you have to sit that long without any sleep, your body wants to CRASH no matter how much meth you do. Honestly, driving scared […]