Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Look, I’m certainly not telling you this to give you any ideas. This piece is more for someone who doesn’t know how easy it is to get paraphernalia. Maybe you are wondering where on earth addicts get those strange looking pipes not realizing that you are buying your milk right next to a meth pipe. […]

Dilemmas of Coming Down

Dilemmas of Coming Down

“The option of rehab is still available, and I guess I’ll still think about it but there are a couple problems… So if I go, I have to come home to my boyfriend using and force myself to not use, and my son doesn’t know I ever started it again.” Dilemmas of coming down When […]

METH AND WEIGHT. WHAT NOT TO SAY – EVER.

METH AND WEIGHT. WHAT NOT TO SAY – EVER.

When I was introduced to meth with Mark, I was 27 years old and weighed about 140lbs on my 5’5” frame. I wasn’t happy with my weight but at least I had been losing weight after getting up to 180lbs when I used the birth control shot the previous years. I’ve been vegetarian my whole […]

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

The End – No Wait, the Beginning.

(If you haven’t read “December, 2007. My Last Month Being an Addict” you probably should or this might not make any since). It’s New Year’s Eve, 2007. Jack and I have been on a huge runner preparing to finally quit (that’s sensible thinking, right?) and this was the last night – MY LAST NIGHT OF […]

The Thrill of Not Getting Caught

The Thrill of Not Getting Caught

I think everyone deep down gets a thrill out of ‘not being caught.’ This could include a whole range of behaviors – stealing, cheating, addictive issues, drinking to name a few. What’s yours?? Obviously its pressure from others that fuels the thrill (police or victim – whoever it is that you are hiding your behavior […]

THANKSGIVING 2015

THANKSGIVING 2015

THANKSGIVING – the good and the bad. I love Thanksgiving  – but I’ve had good ones and I’ve had bad ones. The two Thanksgivings that I had with Mark, my ex-husband, I remember being so high that I couldn’t eat. There is a since of excitement around that just made getting too high to function […]

Trigger Dream

Trigger Dream

My husband, Jack is sometimes a restless sleeper. And I’m a please-don’t-bother-me-I-am-in-desperate-need-of-sleep sleeper. Being mom and having baby sleeping in the room with us, my ears are always on when I wish they were off. And when I get woke up needlessly, I get cranky. I try really hard not to because it’s caused arguments […]