Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Did You Know You Can Buy a Meth Pipe at the Cash Register Counter?

Look, I’m certainly not telling you this to give you any ideas. This piece is more for someone who doesn’t know how easy it is to get paraphernalia. Maybe you are wondering where on earth addicts get those strange looking pipes not realizing that you are buying your milk right next to a meth pipe. […]

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

Dealing with Meth Dreams and Cravings: We All Have Them But It Doesn’t Mean Backsliding.

“I’ve been clean 9 months and still get cravings. They are especially bad after dreams of using.” I already am a vivid dreamer and when I was younger, I use to sleep-walk a lot. My nighttime activity was sometimes more active than I would be during the wake hours! I can remember some dreams that […]

Been Clean For a Week and It’s Just Not Worth It”

Been Clean For a Week and It’s Just Not Worth It”

“Been clean for a week and my body is still feeling the aftershock. It’s just not worth it” If you’ve quit or ran out of meth, you KNOW this feeling. This is what meth does. This is the hold that meth has. ‘Aftershock’ is a great descriptive word to depict just how bad you feel […]

A Roof for Six Months

A Roof for Six Months

“I’ve been living on the edge of not knowing of my housing status for the last 2 months but I can finally relax for at least the next 6.” This statement conveys a small ray of hope for someone who is using still or trying to quit and get their life back on track. Meth […]

Scared to Drive.

Scared to Drive.

What scared me the most when I was on meth? DRIVING! What do you think of that, or can you relate? I know it was the same for Jack too. When you have to sit that long without any sleep, your body wants to CRASH no matter how much meth you do. Honestly, driving scared […]

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Being Drug Tested at Work is Fun.

Have you been drug tested at work? Either for a random test or a test due suspicion? I have – AND IT WASN’T FUN. Especially since I was HIGH. What a day (shaking my head). It was late summer. I was doing secretarial work for a company – I was with Jack – and in […]

December, 2007. My last month of being an addict.

December, 2007. My last month of being an addict.

It’s December 2015 and it’s a good time to reflect on that last month I did meth because it was an impactful month, and at the time during that month eight years ago, I didn’t even know how much my life was about to change. I could see that my relationship with my current husband, […]

Do I think about meth every day now?

Do I think about meth every day now?

No, not anymore. Normal life is BUSY. I’m busier now than doing nothing tweaking. Granted, when you’re tweaking you feel like you are getting tons done but really you’re not. It comes up now and then in my mind, and honestly, I’ll find myself pine for it like a long, lost friend for a moment […]

Life after meth.

Life after meth.

You really need to think about this as a journey – an open road. Life is a highway consisting of work, relationships, and responsibilities. Everyone around you is on the same highway. You took an exit when you allowed meth in your life, and granted, it seemed like a really fun and exciting detour. But […]