What’s Been Happening – and I Met an Old Friend….

I don’t know if you’ve noticed but I haven’t posted any new blogs lately – yes, I know. I’ve turned my attention onto a couple of projects that I’ve been working on and just haven’t had a chance but I will be back on track posting blogs twice a week. In the meantime, I like to take a second to tell you about what I’m working on launching.

The blog is definitely important and I have a whole list of things I want to tell you about my addiction experience and living normal life. However, I want to take it further. I’ve been working on a personalized recovery plan that once it get the kinks figured out with my blog software, I plan on making available as soon as possible.

Quitting meth seems impossible. Meth becomes so ingrained in a person’s life and it takes over everything! I remember feeling like I couldn’t do ANYTHING without a hit a meth- I couldn’t drive because I would fall asleep, I couldn’t clean the house, shop, go to work, hang out with anyone, etc. The few times that you ‘accidentally’ experience coming down (you ran out or can’t get any) makes you want to never feel that way ever again – hence the addiction continues. The last time I came down I was scared – no one knew about my addiction so logistically coming down was SCARY. How would I manage a job, relationships, bills, and life and come down from meth??

Well, I wish I had a plan; something simple, and easy to follow. Most importantly, something that was personalized just to me. Everyone’s situation is different so a generic plan wouldn’t work – some have jobs and want to quit, some have no place to go and want to quit, some don’t know what kind of support they need but still want to quit. So, keeping all this in mind, I generated a survey of 10 questions that give me an idea where you are at, and what obstacles you are faced with while wanting to quit meth and re-join normal life. I also intended that the questions get you thinking about what’s really going on in your life that meth is hiding. Taking the survey is free so when you’re done, hopefully it’s got you thinking about where you stand and what needs to change.

Next, you’ll have the option to buy your personalized plan that is based on the answers you provided. After you purchase the plan, I’ll look over your answers and send your personalized plan – your guide, your starting point. I’m hoping it will determine what kind of support you’ll need to come down, how and where you’ll come down, what you’ll do about your job, and habits to start implementing right away to help with urges and replace unhealthy choices with healthy, long-lasting habits. Please read my terms and conditions, as well as the disclaimers; it’s just a plan – a place to start. It will up to you whether you want to use it to come down.

In the near future, I’ll be offering a ‘Plan B’ where I will take the recovery plan and step further and look up resources in your area based on your location. I’ll look up whatever services you need (rehab, NA meetings, job searches, etc.) so that all you have to do is make the call and get started. I’m pretty excited about doing the leg work for you if it means you’ll considering leaving that drug behind and join me in normal life. THERE IS LIFE AFTER METH WAITING FOR YOU.

One other service I would like to start as soon as I get the bugs worked out is Face-To-Face time through Skype. If you need to talk about recovery, have any questions about how I came down, how to take care of the obstacles that seems like they are keeping you from quitting, or just need encouragement to quit, I’m here to talk face-to-face through Skype. Remember, I am a peer mentor (not a counselor or a coach) so I’m here to listen with empathy and share my experiences with you in hope that you will find  comfort and encouragement to quit. Keep checking the website for appointment openings.

In addition, if you have a family member that is addicted to meth and want to talk, I would be happy to share my experience with you and listen to what you are dealing with. I have experience having a relationship with an addict so I understand the line between enabling and supporting. Sometimes talking about what is going on helps you see you own situation more clearly.

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So about that old friend….. crazy. Last week I was sick with a big head-cold. My nose was so stuffed I could barely function – and being a stay-home mom, I NEED to function to keep up with the 17th month old baby. I took over-counter medicine for about two days with NO relief. I was desperate so I went to my local pharmacy in my small town and dragged myself in with kids in tow. The pharmacist himself helped me. I told him that I needed help BAD. He said he had some medicine behind the counter that would TOTALLY help me with my stuffed head – and he said it would give me some energy. Hummm. He told me to take it right away, and I would only need to take one every 24-hours. Hummmmm. I took it as soon as I got home and within an hour, I felt funny. Yeah, my head was CLEAR but my insides were tight. My face felt tight, my heart felt like it was beating faster – and then it dawned on me that I felt like I was on a meth high without the good part of the high. It was the sucked up, sick part of the high. Yeah, I had a little energy – nothing like the high-energy of meth but energy. It made me feel horrible. TOTALLY reminded me of tweaking again. It messed with my head, messed with my body, and I hated it. BUT IT WAS GOOD TO BREATH. I took another pill the next 24-hours and again, went through the whole nasty-high experience. I even had a hard time sleeping. I knew that I wouldn’t take another pill – I felt like I needed to come down! The reaction was so powerful and brought up so many feelings about tweaking. When I stopped taking the pill, I literally came down – I was irritable and felt sick. The pill had 240/mg of pseudoephedrine – no wonder I felt like I was tweaking. NO, IT DIDN’T MAKE ME FEEL LIKE GOING AND GETTING A BAG. Instead, I felt so blessed that if I chose, I never had to take that pill again – though I really did appreciate the clear nose. It was just a trippy experience.

Anyway, that is what I’ve been working on. Send me a message and let me know what’s happening with you!

Until next time, PEACE.

About Carlee Walker

My name is Carlee and I'm a meth addict. I've been clean for nine years and celebrating normal life. Yes, a meth addict can have a normal life and the addiction can be like a scar on the knee. AND you don't have to face your addiction alone! Jesus has already promised to help us if we just call on Him - and my life is now fulfilling thanks to Him. Come, journey with me. Share with me. Grow with me. Together, we can celebrate normal life.